This is my blog where I talk about everything that interests me.
this post includes discussions of religion, specifically Christianity and uses the pronouns "we" and "us" to refer to the writer and the reader.
Hello again fellow viewers! How have you been (you can write a response in the homepage chatbox). To be honest, life has been pretty up and down for me lately. I've been researching into my desired career as a Physician (Medical Doctor). I've also been researching into ways I want to begin to pour myself into that career field now. It has been very stressful but at the same time SO EXCITING. I love getting excited bruh like when I'm passionate about something I AM SO INTO IT. I've been struggling lately to set boundaries when it comes to screen time and I recently decided to go back to the things I used to do last year. I felt like I was in a spiritual rut for a few months because I haven't been reading my bible as much lately but I've been doing a lot better now (glory to God). I remember listening to a podcast by Elodie Christina title "I lost my fire for God." That was so comforting and lately I've really been looking for comfort. I reccomend you check that podcast out.
With that being said, today's topic is discussing our faith in God's provision as Christians. This topic for me was very convicting but also comforting. Be prepared to open up your Bible and go through some points and personal stories about my journey in having faith in God's provision (Please note that when I speak about God in this article, I am refering to the father of Jesus Christ).
For reference, some people would consider me an overacheiver. I've always been academically gifted but that was amplified during the COVID-19 pandemic where I was just at home and my main priority was my school work. I began to excel and accelerate at a higher level. Once the pandemic was over, I began to look at careers and I've wanted to be like every career from an architect to a software engineer to a marketing director to a nurse to a lawyer to a real estate agent to a psychiatrist to a video game designer *not in order* (i know. that's a lot). Before I officially became a Christian in, I told myself I'll become a Christian when I'm an adult to pray for job stability and get answer from God on what I should do with my life. Eventually that cut down to 8th grade because my mom already told me that I'm going to a magnet highschool so I was pressured to figure out what I was going to do with my life. When I became a Christian, I stopped thinking about my career aspirations for some time to focus on my relationship with God. Then, about nine months after officially becoming a Christian, I started to think about it again.
During this time of thinking about my career again, I have experinced the stress of not having faith in God. From personal experince, I can tell you that this planet, Earth, that we live on is so unstable. No matter what career you choose, you are at jepordy.
According to Hebrews 11:1, "Faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance in what we do not see." Faith is a characteristic and a verb. This means it is an intrinsic being and an external appearance. Your faith in Jesus Christ (the Son of God) should be visible throughout your daily life. If it is visible in you daily life, then you also have it as a characteristic. Faith is imperative to the Christian lifestyle because as Christians we are subject to more suffering than non-Christians (1 Peter 4:1-3) but we also have a greater hope than non-Christians (which is live in Heaven eternally with God when Jesus returns for a second time). With this hope of complete restoration when we live for Jesus Christ we can make it through this unstable world without fear. We can pursue God's will and our passions without fear of not being able to eat everyday. All we have to do is to put our faith in Jesus which includes living out our faith (Psalm 37:4). If you are Christian, live your life everyday in this hope but do not forget your duty on this Earth. We (as Christians) are to make disciples for Jesus (Matthew 28:19-10). We are not here to simply LIVE A LIFE, we are here to MAXIMIZE.
I remember hearing Psalm 23 all the time as a kid but once I experinced the anxiety that comes from lack of faith in God's provision, reading it was so much more real. I understood it. I was able to absorb it. It was personalized--to me. If you have been exposed to Christianity your entire life but never became a "devout Christian," I invite you to learn more about Jesus. Search up some articles. Read some of the Christian Bible. Listen to a Christian podcast. Understand Jesus Christ and his father, God, personally for yourself. If you liked reading this blog post, check out more on my page here. I appreciate your support and even just the fact that you read this post. I talk a lot about Jesus, my life, and my aspirations. If you want to make the decision to become a Christian today I ask that you recite the prayer below with confidence in what you are saying.
"Dear God, I believe that Jesus loves me so much that He died on the cross, taking the penalty of my sins, and that you rose Jesus from the dead, defeating all powers of death making the way for eternal life. I accept your love into my heart and from now on, I choose to live a life with Jesus as my Lord and personal savior. In Jesus’ holy name I pray, Amen."
Starting my neocities page has been something that I've wanted to do since October 2024. Now...it's only April 2025 but with the way time flies and how young I am, that felt like forever. Honestly everyday feels like forever until I look back and realize that it hasn't been that long. It's really because I change some much but Jesus never does.
I really wanted to start this because back then I was super interested in web design and graphic design as a career but now I see it more as a hobby. I've realized that i have a lot of transferrable skills. I'm very innovative and come with ideas like crazy. It's very easy for me to adapt. I love to learn and interact with human beings. I've made it my life's mission to spread the gospel of Jesus Christ but even then I new that I wanted to bring something purposeful to the world.
I don't have it all planned out but I trust that God the Father of Jesus Christ has all the details planned and has placed in me everything needed to fulfill my Heavenly mission fo evangelism. I'm now considering pursuing a career in Medicine (the one career I was running away from). This is what God has lead me to and I have faith that he will carry out this good work in me to fulfill it. I'm considering specializing in Pediatrics, Anestegiology, and Psychiatry.
Regardless, back to the topic. I really wanted to start one of these websites because I thought it was cool. Now I have a different perspective. I had a revelation from the Lord--Jesus Christ-- about myself. It is,
"Chase after the Lord [Jesus Christ], not the image [of my desires]"
This has been transformational in my relationship with God. It has really helped me to fix my eyes on Heaven however I still struggle. I fix my eyes on Jesus through it all and have been following him for over fifteen months.
It has been rough and there are many more years to come and I really wanted to document that here even if now one looks at my webpage. Maybe the Lord will lead someone here--maybe he won't! Regardless, I felt the leading to do this. With the Holy Spirit in me, I know that I am in good hands. Imma talk on here like I talk on my unofficial podacast. I actually may link it on here just so only I can look at it and admire that work that God is inspiring in me.
To give a brief conclusion, Jesus led me to this. And it has been successful because this is the most code I've ever put in to write on Neocities. Glory to Jesus! Thank you.
--Esabella Maia
Published 12th April 2025 at 9:00 PM
Updated at 9:11 PM 12th April 2025